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Hi! I'm Astrid, now I am studying in Lasalle College of the Arts, Singapore- now in my first year of BA(Hons) Animation.

Mostly I draw humans, but not limited to animals. I am interested in drawing fanarts the most, and also trying to blend with so many artistic styles I encountered :)

The five family members of :iconpoke-indo:
:iconrainy-scramble77: :iconadamantdiamond: :icontorosiken: :iconthunder-milotic: :icongrandtale:
  • Listening to: Sound Horizon - Ark

Hell, i feel like a super coward; being here for the first time since... 8 or 9 months, maybe? I know, that this kind of hiatus-then-come-back-without-word life is wrong, sinful and forbidden for artists, but I can't just help it. I can got bored over things easily.

Idk, i just feel that time, my drawing life is super pathetic. It feels that the skill I have inside me and that drawing skill I 'forged' for, like, around 6 years just vanished. Poof. As simple as that.

Maybe, just maybe, that you , I am STILL browsing through DA here, even though I do it seldomly, because actually when I do it (browsing), I feel that my heart is being shattered, by looking at the bright, vibrant pics and such here. That is enough to make me want to bang my head and cry.

Plus, actually I am still drawing. Yes, I do. I do that... On my study books, blank unused papers and such, but never on drawing paper, unless it is for studying projects. Actually it really is my school's study projects/ exams/ such things that have a big impact on my drawing process. Actually I'm having a hectic life, dealing with tasks, and a lot of other problems. I feel weakened day by day, month by month, that the drawing skill in my hand found their way to vanish. ._.

Well, but suddenly, around the middle of February, I got a little spark in my hands to draw something again, even if it is just a crappy simple doodle/ chibi or such. Actually, my interest for Naruto rised again after 3 years not hearing anything from the fandom itself (especially Akatsuki.. GODDAMMIT ITACHI Y U STILL LOOKS SO MESMERIZING EVEN WITH YER WRINKLES?! ;________;  )
And myself, feel like somehow delighted again because that I find a little piece of my so-called 'previous life'

Somehow, I also feel energized because of one of my friend's tweet, if i remember it well, it should be like this:
"Are you so weak, that you can't get up by yourself? Or actually you are a dumb?"

That quote really stabs me. Right into the heart. Well, (maybe) she doesn't mean that quote to me, but imo, that quote is reflecting myself; being so weak and miserable that I can't even try to struggle to find the way to shine with my drawing skills. And the problem is, actually in my mind the skill that maybe I really have is only in drawings, arts, that aspect only. Maybe I don't have a future over the other aspects. Maybe it is just the paranoid side of me. Or maybe that will be the inevitable truth of my future.

Ah. There. My mind got blank right now. Maybe this is the end of the summary of the problems in my mind for months. I feel quite relieved that I can let it flow somewhere, and maybe you wouldn't give a damn about this... crap. Yeah, maybe that is the real definition of this long journal.

P.S: Once again, sorry for being such a drama queen or such.

~ GrandTale



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CephalonLethea Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you so much for watching. We really appriciate it >w<~<3
GrandTale Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2015  Student General Artist
nah, your drawings are so good, so there's no problem with that :3
aNameaNameaName Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2015   Traditional Artist
Thank you, my dear ~
GrandTale Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2015  Student General Artist
you're welcome!! :)
tsukiko-kiyomidzu Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you for the fave! ^^ 
GreenOrNothing Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Happy birthday!! birthday cake 
GrandTale Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Student General Artist
Ohh! Thank you very much!! :D just opened DA 'cos college started already >.<'
GreenOrNothing Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2014  Student Digital Artist
you're welcome!! ^v^
(( eeep how's college cause it sounds terrifying//// o.o ))
Illusione-Tempus Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Masih hidup kau? :O
GrandTale Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Student General Artist
ini... reinkarnasi gw /dor/ haha skrg gw hidup kembali OTL
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